i stopped kickboxing a year ago. about finding that woman, i become a member of meetup.com and i think it will work out for me.

i attended some meetings so far. i will keep trying it. the website is very nice, it is not like meeting someone online, your meet as a group in some place, there you have chance the meet individuals. Since more than several people come together, there is no need to trust each other and have long conversations before meeting.

Nothing to worry about it.
“Delusion arises from anger. The mind is bewildered by delusion. Reasoning is destroyed when the mind is bewildered. One falls down when reasoning is destroyed.”
---Bhagavad Gita quote.

there are many religion and religious groups in india that keep fighting with each other. also i have close indian friends who keep saying that they dont like indians

Anyway, back to topic... i get angry quite a lot... generally my parents annoy me.

you should go and live alone. you are a guy with 15000 post with good knowledge, you must be earning good money. you can afford it.

Sadly im unemployed .... used to sell computer equiptment, but now i cant even work in mcdonalds... oh well .. sucks really because im a student and therefore am broke.

dude, you can work as a free lancer, you are good programmer, you can at least work part time. if you are unemployed that is really sad, i even think that you are a better programmer than i am.
And you are much younger.

And last but not least, your native language is english, even you can speak with scottish accent, so as you can understand scottish english, you can speak with all different accents in the world even irish maybe

eat better and have counceling. it worked for me.

Don't mix up Scottish and Irish, they are like water and fire