Dear Dani,
I am so very sorry to hear of the loss of your Dad (since I haven't seen you on the board for roughly a week I am assuming that he has passed and that you are sitting Shiva) and, of course, I offer you and your family heartfelt condolences on your tragic loss.
I lost my Pops over three years ago and there are still times I miss him so much it's nearly a physical pain. But, then again, time has washed away most all of the pain and I am able to rejoice in his life all of the good times we had (and some of the bad, but that's ok!) and all of the knowledge and character he was able to pass on to me. I hope you can find some comfort in that one day this natural progression will work it's way on you as well, and that with the passage of time far more rememberances will bring laughter to your voice than tears to your eyes.
In the mean time I would like to offer you a story I found while searching the web for a prayer:
A Jewish Storyabout death
Rabbi Meir had two young sons each of whom he loved dearly. Both of them died on the same day; it was the Sabbath and the Rabbi was at the house of learning teaching his people about their faith. On his return his wife greeted him with a question. 'Some time ago a friend gave me some jewels to keep for him. Today he demands their return; what shall I do ?' The Rabbi replied "Of course you must give back the jewels, I do not understand why you ask such a question' His wife took him by the hand and led him into the room where the children lay dead. 'These", she said, "Are the jewels that I must return.' The Rabbi through his tears spoke the words from the scriptures, 'The Lord has given and the Lord has taken away, blessed be the name of the Lord.
The above passage was taken from this webpage:
Jewish Death customs and funeral customs. I wanted to offer you an appropriate prayer, but had difficulty finding one (I have, on my own recited on behalf of your Dad, you and your family the Our Father prayer, and will continue to do so), although I did find a page for what I believe is the El Molai Rachamim. I was going to copy it here in fellowship to you and what you are going through, but I don't want to inadvertently disrespect the structure and tradition of the prayer by miscopying the English portion, so I've included the following link:
Mourner's Kaddish.
I only wish I could reach through this page and give you a friendly bearhug, CSCGAL and offer some comfort there. Suffice it to say that you are greatly appreciated here and that your pain is shared by the regular and casual members alike. May your Dad rest in Everlasting Peace.
Paul
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