Hi,
Please don't consider what i'm about to say as a lecture. It's good that you should get into programming - sure. But you don't have to put yourself down saying " you see i realize i havnt accomplished much in my life ". You're 17 - don't worry. The teenage black hole will one day fill up. You have NO idea where you go in life - whether it's a good or bad place. No person knows even if they're 30 years old.

Feelings of accomplishments are good. They're good feelings. But doing things don't matter, accomplishments don't matter - whether good or bad. You matter. [Pardon my french people] see - we all came from a drop of sperm and an egg. Do you know what that looks like? It's disgusting and it's nothing - a tiny invisible slimeball. From that you have become who you are. And that tiny fact in itself makes you a miracle. That also puts you on par with every other over-developed slime-ball.

I've heard that lately Jalaluddin Rumi's Masnavi has become extremely popular over there - beyond the pond and in the US. Let me quote him:

• This World Which Is Made of Our Love for Emptiness
  
  Praise to the emptiness that blanks out existence. Existence:
  This place made from our love for that emptiness!
  
  
  
  Yet somehow comes emptiness,
  this existence goes.
  
  Praise to that happening, over and over!
  For years I pulled my own existence out of emptiness.
  
  Then one swoop, one swing of the arm,
  that work is over.
  
  Free of who I was, free of presence, free of dangerous fear, hope,
  free of mountainous wanting.
  
  The here-and-now mountain is a tiny piece of a piece of straw
  blown off into emptiness.
  These words I'm saying so much begin to lose meaning:
  Existence, emptiness, mountain, straw:
  Words and what they try to say swept
  out the window, down the slant of the roof.

The emptiness is not that facing the world - but it's face is turned towards something greater than it....like the feeling you get on a tiny boat in the ocean. Love somthing greater than you - not your own accomplishments. This is the reason why we find Samuri's or Lord of the Rings and every other quest story so appealing - the venturer has set more value on the quest than himself.

Pardon my little outburst. I thought it more important than telling somone how to learn programming.