I'm just going to post something that i posted in another forum, as I already typed out what's going on in my life and do not want to type it out again.
i've been thinking about my life these last 4-5 years. originally started with wanting to do a music major. then i switched to trying to do pharmacy. Couldn't stand that so i went back to music. Applied for a university and wasn't accepted into the music program. Family kept telling me it wasn't meant to be. So i felt like since i liked computers i would do computer science.
I got accepted into a university and already have 1 year under my belt. But i realize that i hate programming. I'm basically on a deadline because my brother in law is a programmer, and he wants to take me into his job when i graduate, and i have to be an expert in the C programming language by next summer, along with being really good in the Unix terminal, by next summer, or they can't hire me. Basically everything i'm doing in school is Bull because it's all about this job my brother in law is setting me up with. The school doesn't teach C, and doesn't teach Unix.
I'm completely stressed because i have no desire to work on this shit. I dread it. I like computers, but not this kind of stuff. I think I quit to early and should have applied to other schools for music.
I'm already 1 year in (i transfer in from a community college) i am about $6000 in debt already from student loans, so it's not like i can just back out now. I think i've dug the hole too deep.
Maybe it would have been better for me to go to someplace like Devry, get a computer technician certification. And go to work asap, making enough to live ok on my own and put more of my focus on music on the side.
But no, i think it's too late. All i care about is getting any type of job so i can support my musical projects and live an ok life. I don't need to make 100+k a year for this. Looking at my brother in law, it looks like i am driving myself into a trap of a job that takes over my whole life, having to work even when i go home. Having no time for anything. I don't want that crap, if it's going to be like that, kill me now.
I'm not a very good programmer, I despise programming. All it does, is cause me stress. Is this what a computer science degree will lead me to? A job sitting in a cubicle all day programming? I feel behind compared to my peers because everyone seems to know a lot more about computers than I do. Basically i thought that since I spend most of my time on a computer anyways, and have messed around with different operating systems, that computer science is the right path, but now i'm not so sure. Is there anything in the field that does not require any programming?
Should i just finish this degree basically as a backup, try to find some basic job to help support myself, and try to dive deep into my true passion?